The Abundance Experiment, BOINK!

Well folks, I missed a few days... I did think about the messages, but I didn't end up having the time to blog about what came up for me around them. And, this is feeling like something that I really wish I would have done privately. I've been very transparent, and... I think I'd like to start over, as he insists when you miss a day or two, and complete the project privately. Thank you for your interest and checking in.

I will be continuing to blog about other topics as they come up, so please stay tuned!

The Abundance Experiment, Day 15

Money is not my supply. No person, place or condition is my supply. My awareness, understanding and knowledge of the all-providing activity of the Divine Mind within me is my supply. My consciousness of the Truth is unlimited, therefore, my supply is unlimited." ~exert from John Randolph Price, The Abundance Book

I feel tapped in. Seriously, everything is flowing in a beautiful profound way. I'm not necessarily seeing financial abundance, or really romantic abundance yet, but my relationships are deepening and new people, with amazing awareness, are coming into my existence. I live in gratitude, my metaphorical cup hath runneth over. Namaste.

The Abundance Experiment, Day 14

Through my consciousness of my God-Self, the Christ within, as my source, I draw into my mind and feeling nature the very substance of Spirit. This substance is my supply, thus my consciousness of the Presence of God within me is my supply. ~ expert from The Abundance Book by John Randolph Price

It's very interesting when I ponder this statement. At first, nothing much was coming up outside of the blah, blah, blah in my head. And then, as I continued to sit with it, two ideas emerged and merged. The first is that we as humans have constructed the word and definition of "enough". Our sentiment, "My cup hath runneth over", is again a representation of our limitations on what is enough. The Universe holds no measuring device for "enough" or "not enough". When I allow myself to sit with this curiosity inside of me, all of my problems and fears seem very, very small. I'm surmising that the secret is to tap into the infinite supply that is within without suppression, without judging what is "enough" or "not enough". When I am able to do that, when WE are able to do that, the possibilities will truly be endless.

The Abundance Experiment, Day 13

"I'm conscious of the Inner Presence as my lavish Abundance. I am conscious of the constant activity of this Mind of infinite Prosperity. Therefore, my consciousness is filled with the Light of Truth." exert taken from The Abundance Book by John Randolph Price.

I'm rolling with the punches, as they say. Who "they" are eludes me, but nonetheless, they do say it!

My new tenant decided not to take my house. In 24 hours I went from elated to fearful to grateful, just like that. I was so happy that I had someone who checked out well want to take the house. Then, I was uncomfortable/fearful for a short time when I found out he'd changed his mind. Afraid of all the "what if's" that could be. Then, as I pondered the way the fear felt in the pit of my stomach, I recognized with gratitude that God likely just helped me to dodge a bullet. It's expensive and frustrating to have rapid turnover in a rental house when you can't manage it yourself. Likely, he wasn't as good of a fit as he appeared, and by him leaving before coming, it saved me from having him decide a month or two down the road that it wasn't a good house for his needs. Whew!

I've been noticing how cool that phenomenon can be. I used the example with a client recently, when she was expressing concern over the dating experience and how hurtful it was to get blown off by men at different times. I told her to envision a large funnel. At the top of the funnel it is very, very wide and open to men of all kinds coming into her awareness. Little by little, they get squeezed out as they come down into the narrow part. At the bottom is a filter and that filter catches all the men who aren't good fits for her. Sometimes it happens by them blowing her off for a planned date, other times it's seeing how they treat a waitress in a restaurant. The filter helps to keep us from continuing to date the "wrong" men. God letting us off the hook before we get too many feelings invested. If we pay attention to the filters, we save ourselves a lot of grief. Now, that isn't to say that a man has to be perfect to make it all the way to you. No. The man certainly doesn't have to be perfect. It's just that his issues and quirks, and your issues and quirks, have to get along. You figure this out by all the subtle nuances of dating.

Now, that may seem like a huge digression, but indulge me for just another moment...

The Universe does that for everything in our lives. We just have to pay attention and not invest too much energy in the outcome. The Universe ALWAYS has our best interests at heart. Even if it appears that that isn't the case. If you can look at a scenario with detached awareness, you will always, eventually, find an understanding about why this or that happened. It may still have been a painful experience, and yet the learnings are paramount.

Apparently, someone even better and more suited is going to rent my house. Soon!

The Abundance Experiment, Day 12

" I lift up my mind and heart to be aware, to understand, and to know that the Divine Presence I AM is the Source and Substance of all my good." -John Randolph Price, exert from The Abundance Book.

I've been a little stressed out lately, but really actively trying to let go of the stress and lock in on TRUST. You see, I have a couple of houses that I rent out in Washington state. The tenants of each houses gave notice one month apart that they were leaving. To pay the mortgages without the tenants help was very, very intimidating to me.

This is the current situation: The tenant in the first house paid through this month as her last months rent, but vacated a couple of days ago. She left her personal washer and dryer behind because she couldn't use them anymore. A couple of years ago, I had my washer and dryer stolen out of the house by some tenants when they moved out. So, wow, a new set to replace what was taken before? Lovely. :)

Then, she showed the house yesterday to a young gentleman who loved the house and wants to move in immediately. So, the rental of the first house went like clockwork.

I couldn't have asked for a better flow. I am extremely grateful to the Universe for taking such good care of me. I am grateful to myself that I didn't let myself get overwhelmed with fear and trusted that I would be taken care of! I just know that the other house is going to flow easily and effortlessly also!

I live in an Abundant world. I am Abundant. I am love. You are love. Tap into this frequency of Abundance with me. You will love every second of it!

The Abundance Experiment, Day 11

"God is lavish, unfailing Abundance, the rich omnipresent substance of the Universe. This all-providing Source of infinite prosperity is individualized as me—the Reality of me."

This experiment has been really interesting in some ways to me. First off, I've realized that looking into it, meditating upon God and abundance is triggering something inside of me that is uncomfortable. The name God is all-encompassing to me. It is my favorite word for the Divine. And yet, it triggers my Christian roots and brings up the parts that I didn't like. For example, the parts that boxed God into little segments based on our human experiences and judgments. The parts that cast rich people as evil and greedy. The parts that cast the poor as being more spiritual...

As I explore these different feelings that are coming up, it occurs to me that I still have blocks... or else I wouldn't be having these negative emotions come up. So, my job today is explore my inner-most feelings on religion, God, mythology and especially money. Tomorrow I will post on what comes up for me. For today, I shall ponder....

The Abundance Experiment, Day 10

1. I keep my mind and thoughts off “this world” and I place my entire focus on God within as the only Cause of my prosperity. I acknowledge the Inner Presence as the only activity in my financial affairs, as the substance of all things visible. I place my faith in the Principle of Abundance in action within me. ~Exert from The Abundance Book by John Randolph Price

I feel pretty clear right now. There are a few places within me that I sense are not in alignment with this as a complete belief. I trust that I am taken care of, but I'm still feeling like I need to do my part, and that is the "action" component.

Yesterday I finished my part finally of a long, laborious task; working towards amending a frustrating hospital bill. This has been quite daunting to me, stressing both my body and soul. Now that the required paperwork is done and in their hands, I can let it go... let the Universe take care of the bill and I don't have to worry about it anymore.

F For some reason, I have felt like part of this process of owning my eternal rights to Abundance, comes with freeing all the binds that material bills, taxes, and incidentals have on me. Specifically, anything that resembles "stuck" energy. This aspect of Abundance feels clear now and I can just let go of any expectation or anxiety and let the energy of money flow.

All the other aspects of Abundance is feeling really, really good right now. My relationship with my teenage son is really healthy and happy. My relationships in general have been good. I feel motivated and enjoying my work. And, I may be even creating a new romantic relationship....

The Abundance Experiment, Day 9

When I am aware of the God-Self within me as my total fulfillment, I am totally fulfilled. I am now aware of this Truth. I have found the secret of life, and I relax in the knowledge that the Activity of Divine Abundance is eternally operating in my life. I simply have to be aware of the flow, the radiation, of that Creative Energy, which is continuously, easily and effortlessly pouring forth from my Divine Consciousness. I am now aware. I am now in the flow. ~The Abundance Book by John Randolph Price

I feel the flow radiating through me. It's been a constant theme with my clients lately, them resetting their frequencies to match that of Divine Abundance. I've been feeling my vibration shifting and aligning itself to the Universe's as well.

Now, for the visioning. I'm still struggling with seeing my life as I desire it to be, in the present tense. I still catch myself thinking and expressing audibly as well, that I can't afford this or that, instead of being so sure of my abundance as my exact reality.

So, visioning is where I am focusing right now..... wish me luck!

The Abundance Experiment, Day 8

My consciousness of the Spirit within me as my unlimited Source is the Divine Power to restore the years the locusts have eaten, to make all things new, to lift me up to the High Road of abundant prosperity. This awareness, understanding and knowledge of Spirit appears as every visible form and experience that I could possibly desire. ~exert from The Abundance Book by John Randolph Price

I think about how today I was going through all my old writings and poems. Thinking about all that I learned from my failed relationships. How my perspective and awareness is so different now... I remember in my 20's reading things from my teens and marveling at the simplicity of my feelings. Now I am basically doing the same thing. I comment about this because I think of how Abundance isn't just money and material goods. It's love. It's friendship. It's music, and nature, and everything that you could hope and dream for.

I dream of romantic abundance. I have yearned to find my partner. I have yearned for this, and yet felt very, very content in my life without. I have enjoyed meeting different men and having wonderful interactions, and as of yet, I have not met the one that I choose to take the rest of the journey with.

As this awareness flows through me, patience and tolerance for MYSELF radiates like never before. I recognize that I am not perfect still, as I always have, and yet I am not fixating on perfection in myself or in my partner. The more that I cut myself some slack for being a mere human doing my best to connect and live with Spirit, the more I cut the same slack for everyone else. We are all just doing the best we can, with the tools we've got. I've often been good at allowing that in others, but rarely within myself.

I think that as I ponder this abundance that is gathering within me and through me, it is restoring the parts of me that the locusts have destroyed, creating me anew, and finally ready, to meet my love.

The Abundance Experiment, Day 7

The Divine Consciousness that I am is forever expressing its true nature of Abundance. This is its responsibility, not mine. My only responsibility is to be aware of this Truth. Therefore, I am totally confident in letting go and letting God appear as the abundant all-sufficiency in my life and affairs.~exert from The Abundance Book by John Randolph Price

I'm not perfect and I'm having imperfect thoughts.... Today, I found myself thinking about how I need to see a couple of different natural doctors for some therapy, but I am not wanting to go (despite how I need their help) because I don't want to spend the money. Apparently, I am still not quite embracing this whole abundance concept.

Maybe that's why he has it set as a 40 day plan, not a 7 day???

I'm calling tomorrow to make my appointments.

A sidebar to abundance may be compassion. I had an interesting dialog with an acquaintance of mine over Facebook today going back and forth about Whitney Houston's passing. ALL I feel is deep, profound compassion for her daughter, other family members, and friends... and her. It's painful to watch someone so extraordinarily talented piss away their talent and their life.

I went through this with a singer/songwriter/composer friend of mine that passed away several Thanksgivings ago. He had an ongoing passionate love/hate affair with both himself and drugs. It manifested in the most horrific and painfully beautiful ways. When he overdosed and left us, he left a hole the size of Texas in the hearts of his family members. He hurt them repeatedly while he was alive. But, every single one of them would rather have him alive and repeating his behavior, then gone forever.

I think the same is true for Whitney. She was troubled and addicted. Was she a bad person? Even if she did some bad things? Nah... she was a human being, doing the best she could. If she had the capacity to do better, she would have. She didn't though, and we need to forgive her for that and be grateful for all the good that she did bring to us. It may be helpful to remember the different ways that we individually aren't always perfect. Life is way too short to be a hater. Let it go, have some compassion for others. And, then get REAL and have some compassion for yourself. You deserve it.

The Abundance Experiment, Day 6

1. My inner supply instantly and constantly takes on form and experience according to my needs and desires, and as the Principle of Supply in action, it is impossible for me to have any needs or unfulfilled desires. ~ exert from The Abundance Book by John Randolph Price

I I went shopping today, not for anything specific, but mostly just to move the energy around.... I'm giggling a little right now because I think that's the first time I've ever used that excuse before to go shopping! I bought a few little things here and there, and each time I made it to the register, the prices were discounted even more! It was a fun experiment of shopping and supply in action!

I'm finding that I'm not processing these last few statements as verbally as the first couple. I guess I feel somewhat like I would be redundant, as I'm actively trying to live with these principles deep within me, flowing out of me. The laws of cause and effect are naturally occurring internally and externally.

The Abundance Experiment, Day 5

Money is not my supply. No person, place or condition is my supply. My awareness, understanding and knowledge of the all-providing activity of the Divine Mind within me is my supply. My consciousness of the Truth is unlimited, therefore, my supply is unlimited." ~exert from John Randolph Price, The Abundance Book

I had two charities call me today asking for help. I passed several homeless people on the streets holding signs that read, "Anything helps". I received several solicitations from research facilities, asking for donations.

Giving has always come easily to me, as long as I've had the opportunity to dictate the usage of the funds. I've been very judgmental about how people choose to use their money, and about how money is used when I give it. It makes me stingy often. I don't want to contribute to someones drug habit, so I won't give to him. She's obviously an alcoholic, so I won't give to her. This company pays its CEO way too well, so I won't give to them.

Money is energy and necessary to live life as we individually choose. I don't think I need to worry or judge how a person or charity uses the money anymore. If I feel a "YES" to give, then the giving is done and the gift doesn't need to come with any guarantees or attachments. Actually, I've felt that way for a long time about physical gifts... wonder why it took me so long to come to terms with this for money? It's the same thing, for goodness sake!

The Abundance Experiment, Day 4

Through my consciousness of my God-Self, the Christ within, as my source, I draw into my mind and feeling nature the very substance of Spirit. This substance is my supply, thus my consciousness of the Presence of God within me is my supply. ~ expert from The Abundance Book by John Randolph Price

I was thinking about earlier about how interconnected everything is. An example I sometimes use with my clients is this, we breathe oxygen that the plants and trees provide for us by their exhalation, our exhalation of carbon dioxide provides the gas that they breathe. We are dependent upon each other in a reciprocal way. We live in a reciprocal universe.

Everything comes from God and is God and that includes me. When I forget that that current of energy runs through me and is me, when I ignore that I am tapped into "the" conductor of the Universe, I miss out on the fireworks. I'm curious... if it is that simple, why do most of us "forget" so often who we really are and what we are connected to?

The Abundance Experiment, Day 3

"I'm conscious of the Inner Presence as my lavish Abundance. I am conscious of the constant activity of this Mind of infinite Prosperity. Therefore, my consciousness is filled with the Light of Truth." exert taken from The Abundance Book by John Randolph Price.

Today was an interesting day, filled with lots of introspection and poignant conversation with a dear friend. I feel as if I am hyper-analyzing my thoughts, feelings, and reactions of the reality I am creating. Catching myself when I'm not remembering who I truly am, and calling myself out on it. And then, teaching myself to let it go. To not hold too tightly to what I think I may be doing "wrong", but rather acknowledging how I can have a better experience by making a different choice next time, and then being done with it. It feels very freeing. I'm beginning to understand on a deeper level that Prosperity and Abundance have everything to do with my inner representation. In fact, that may be the only factor that ultimately matters. The "Inner" therefore, creates the "Outer". This is my beacon. My Light of Truth that I must follow as I create my reality, as I create my "Lavish Abundance".

The Abundance Experiment, Day 2

"" I lift up my mind and heart to be aware, to understand, and to know that the Divine Presence I AM is the Source and Substance of all my good." -John Randolph Price, exert from The Abundance Book.

The Divine Presence I AM... I think that that is the Source and Substance of ALL. Good and Bad, those judgments that I put on circumstances within my perspective. Everything the Universe puts in my path is for my very best. Some things may be interpreted as "bad" by me, and others as "good", but ultimately all for my BEST.

I say this with a bit of a smirk, I must confess. Today was a very good day by my personal standards, and yet I had something happen that could have absolutely taken my vantage point to a disturbing low. I somehow missed a stop sign on my way to dinner, leaving a long day at work. And, I wasn't alone as I missed my stop. Conveniently, there was a police officer to witness my infraction and he very kindly, but firmly, pulled me over and presented me with a ticket! At first I was so confused... I've driven this route a hundred times and have always stopped. Somehow tonight my mind was on something else, likely food, and I just didn't stop--had zero recollection that there even existed a stop sign there. It was all so very bizarre.

My immediate reaction was that of scoffing disbelief that just on day 2 alone of my prosperity plan I would LOSE at least a few hundred dollars, that I don't believe (didn't believe) I can bear to lose, by a simple oversight. And, I sat in my truck for a few moments collecting myself and reflecting on the irony. Some may say that Murphy's Law was out to get me. I actually used to truly believe that I would jinx myself from anything that I wanted if I thought of it too much or showed too much joyous emotion. Thankfully, I learned a while ago that that kind of thinking was crap. Negative. And, counter productive. However, it's obvious to me that some strands of that former consciousness still harbor within me, or I would have right away noticed the gift of my ticket...

This is my gift from tonight's experience: The Universe was playfully testing me. Before it starts allowing the energetic flow of money and abundance my way, it needs to know that I can release all attachments to what that will look like. I need to let go of the feelings of "Lack" and fully, deeply... penetratingly deeply, OWN the beliefs that money is a revolving door of energy.

Although the ticket certainly didn't feel "good" in the human kind of way, I recognize on a deeper and WAY more trustworthy level, that it was for MY GOOD in the highest sense of the meaning. And so, we close on Day 2 with a little drama, a hint of an antagonist character, always a plus for any story worth reading, don't you think?

The Abundance Experiment, Day 1

Forward

Today I start a journey of self-discovery and increased awareness. I have read the book, The Abundance Book by John Randolph Price, and am applying the principles and instructions for allowing the full spectrum of Abundance to not only come into my life, but to overwhelm me so that the Abundance also flows out of me and into others', as it is intended. This is a process of dedication and serious belief change.

I have decided to do Mr. Price's 40 Day Prosperity Plan publicly. Journaling my innermost thoughts and beliefs, allowing myself to be completely transparent and vulnerable to whatever audience chooses to follow this journey with me. This plan ascends as such, one time per day I will write out, in order, one of the ten statements from the book. I will meditate upon the words for several minutes, and then journal my thoughts, feelings, and feedback as to what I see happening in my world, which may or may not be effected by this Prosperity Plan. I will use some critical judgment, as well as, intuition and spiritual insights. Bear with me, as I could get mushy from time to time doing this experiment!

I will appreciate your feedback, even if you think I won't like what you have to say, because this, like any good experiment, will only become richer with input from a variety of opinions.

My hypothesis is that money will flow freely to and from me, building momentum and solidarity, as the God-given energetic tool that it is. I also believe that I will see abundance in other areas where it "feels" like it's been lacking, namely, in the romance department! I'm open to abundance how ever it shows itself to me, and I will share candidly with you. If you choose to take on this Prosperity Plan, I strongly urge you to purchase the book, read it, and then begins when you can fully commit to 40 continual days.

From the book, as instructed:

This day, February 6, 2012, I cease believing in visible money as my supply and my support and I view the world of effect as it truly is... simply an outpicturing of my former beliefs. I believed in the power of money, therefore I surrendered my God-given power and authority to an objectified belief. I believed in the possibility of lack, thus causing a separation in consciousness from the Source of my supply. I believed in mortal man and carnal conditions, and through this faith gave man and conditions power over me. I believed in the mortal illusion created by the collective consciousness of error thoughts, and in doing so, I have limited the Unlimited. No more! This day, I renounce my so-called humanhood and claim my divine inheritance as a Be-ing of God. This day I acknowledge God and only God as my substance, my supply and my support.

Day 1

"God is lavish, unfailing Abundance, the rich omnipresent substance of the Universe. This all-providing Source of infinite prosperity is individualized as me—the Reality of me."

Thoughts:

At first glance, I think to myself, "Oh, heck yeah!" Years before The Secret became such a phenomenon I had learned about beliefs and the structures that support them. I had come to realize that just as a single grain of sand is still, nonetheless, sand... I am also fully God, as we all are. So, this type of thinking on the surface, isn't new. It is the core basis of my beliefs.

And then, the thought occurred to me... "if you truly believed this to be true, then you wouldn't have to do this Prosperity Plan experiment. You would already be living in Abundance." So, apparently I have some serious, deep rooted beliefs systems, likely that I was taught by my parents and grandparents, that I still believe to be true. They have always feared lack, and I need to own that I do also, so I can release it and stop making it true.

The next thought that I process is this, "Infinite prosperity??? What is that? What would it look like? Will I be able to handle it if it really comes to fruition?"

Ah-ha... now I understand why this requires 40 straight days to reprogram this multi-layered belief matrix.