Focus on What's Important

So often it seems that I get buried in the minutia. All of the little incessant things of life that take me away from what's really important. A lot of times, they are also important things, don't get me wrong, just not the things that really drive my bus, so to speak. When you look at your life, and the choices you make that create outcomes, are you living what is important to you? Are you living what is important to others? Or are you living what you think will make you important? So many ways to ponder these questions, and questions within questions... The first thing that I think is good to get a handle on, is what IS important to you? What do you do that fills you with joy? With knowledge? With abundance? Who is important to you? Who really inspires you when you share time with them? Who makes you laugh like no other? Who do you melt into passion with? Who do you feel safe and comfortable with? Conversely, who do you share time with that makes you uncomfortable in a really healthy, growing way? Make some lists answering the above questions and any other questions that pull from them. Ask yourself, "Why are these things important to me?" "How did I learn that these were important?" "Did I come to this on my own, or did someone else tell me they should be important to me?" If they came from someone else, inspect them, check in about them to see if they are authentically something that is important to YOU because of YOU, not because you were told to hold them in value. Delegate out the not-so-important, but still necessary things. For example, if you can afford to, hire someone to clean your house every week or two so that you can use that time for something that really fills you up and inspires you. I struggle with bookkeeping. I just found out that for about $100 bucks a month I can have someone help me keep my books without a lot of extra effort on my part. How cool is that? Bookkeeping is important, but it certainly doesn't inspire me, so now I've found a way to delegate and maximize my time with the things and people that do inspire me! Focus on what is important to you. Let the other non-necessity things in life float on by. Our lives are enriched by our experiences, and as far as anyone knows for certain, we only have this one life. Fill your life with what's important!

Is Hypnosis Safe & Will it Help Me?

Hypnosis and hypnotherapy are often thought of as this ambiguous idea of "mind control" that creates fear and concern in many people.  The media has done a fine job of creating a mammoth misunderstanding about what hypnosis is, and what it isn't.  I would like to provide a little education to my readers, in hopes to squelch the fear patterns.  And, let's face it, we could all use a little less fear in our lives!   (One of the many things that hypnosis can help with, by the way!)

Hypnotic trance is a natural state that we are in and out of periodically throughout our day.  Any time that we are accessing our imagination... watching a compelling movie or television show... driving down the highway lost in thought... planning our lives in our heads with details and pictures, just like we are actually doing the activities... we are in a state of hypnosis.  Therefore, ALL hypnosis is SELF hypnosis.  A natural, safe, wonderful way to allow your conscious mind to rest and your subconscious mind to create!

Locked into our subconscious minds is everything that we have ever heard, seen, imagined, or interpreted.  Our perspectives, at different times in our lives, can be very different.  Remember when you were a little child and your uncle seemed so very big?  And now, as an adult, you can recognize that he's actually a very small man.  He didn't change, but your perspective of how you interpreted him, did change.  We do this with all sorts of stuff.  Something as innocent as overhearing your mother on the phone with someone when you are three years old, saying something to the effect of, "Oh yes, my girl is SUCH a fast learner!"  This seems really innocent, doesn't it?  A nice, positive thing to hear!  Well... maybe.  If this statement becomes locked into your subconscious mind as a truth about who you are and how you identify yourself in this world, what happens when you try to learn something new and you don't learn "fast"?  Maybe the result is that you think you are a failure.  You quit.  You work even harder to prove that you are a fast learner.  You feel like you've let down everyone.  You get depressed and frustrated.  You react full of blame and resentment.  These are all potential fallout of a pleasant, innocuous comment made when you were three years old that you identified with.

As crazy as that scenario may sound, I see it happening in my practice time and again, in one form or the other. Sometimes, it's a negative comment that locks in.  All of what we've heard, seen and learned is taken in through our personal perspective, and somewhere along the way, in our subconscious minds, we decide if it is true or false and then it dictates our behaviors, successes and failures, for the rest of our lives.

Unless we do something about it....

Hypnosis is a tool to do something about it.  A qualified certified hypnotherapist should have the tools to help assess where your stumbling blocks are, and how to navigate the relaxation process to delve into your subconscious mind and help YOU to discover the different things that have come into your awareness throughout your life (and maybe before), and for YOU to create resolution and peace with.

So much healing can occur when you actually understand all of the internal motivating factors that have to do with who you choose to be in this world, and how to change the parts that aren't working for you.

Hypnosis is not a medium to let the devil in.  It doesn't open you up to the "dark side" anymore than sleep does, or watching television, or meditation.  Like I stated above, it is a natural state.  When you work with a qualified, certified hypnotist or hypnotherapist, you will NEVER do anything or say anything that you do not (on some level) want to do or say.  I like to explain it like this--you and your therapist are taking a trip.  You are the driver and they are the navigator.  You have handed them the map of where you would like to be directed, but at any given time, if you choose to turn left instead of right, YOU are in control and can do just that.  A qualified therapist will help keep you on track based on the previously agreed upon plan, but ultimately, you are the boss and you get to exactly where you need to be, and what you are ready for, that day.

Sometimes, multiple sessions are needed to really get the work done.  Baby steps to help you reach your goal.  The old expression, "The teacher will appear when the student is ready" goes even one step further with hypnotherapy, "The subconscious mind will allow what the client is ready for".  Choose your hypnotist that you feel safe and comfortable with, who listens to you (both spoken and unspoken communication), and that you intuit will be supportive and knowledgeable about how to maximize your time together for the best possible results!

Now, allow yourself to relax into a transformative experience that is specially designed just for you and put your worries away!  You'll love it!

How We Identify with Ourselves Affects our Communication Skills

Communication is so critical to good relationships.

Isn't it fun when someone states the obvious in the first line of text?  I'm laughing because it IS so obvious, and yet... it is a universal struggle.  Even the best of us, who communicate for a living, struggle in our intimate relationships with effective communication.

Why, you may ask?  Why is it so difficult?

Well, let's analyze it for a moment.  We are all the same, and yet we are all different.  Even within the same family structure, we are raised with different ideas about who we are, and who we aren't.  This information is programmed into us from the time we are born.  We're the pretty one, or the smart one, or the good athlete, or the slow-learner (or just plain stupid).  We bring these imposed identities into our mindset and they radiate out of us, creating a filter which dictates our reactions in our communications and experiences.  All on a subconscious level, that is.

Did you ever notice how easy it is to be triggered by someone when they say something that either validates or contradicts the imposed self identity?  For example, you're in the grocery store and you ask a clerk where an item is and he goes on and on about what the item is and how it is best used in a know-it-all sort of way (probably just eager to share some passionate information), but you feel yourself pull up inside and get defensive, and maybe even snap at him, "I KNOW what it is!  I just wanted to know where it was! I'm not stupid!"  Whoa... you may think to yourself, "did I just way overreact or what?"  And you did, because that part of your subconscious identity was threatened somehow by the imagined implied message that he thought you were stupid.

Lets take this to the full reality now.  Each of us have these little programs running inside of us that make us react positively and sometimes negatively, to the world around us.  As we become more enlightened, we learn that these are constructs that truly have nothing to do with our true selves, our higher selves.  But, in the meantime, if most of us have these patterns running in the background, and they're all different, how do we communicate effectively with each other?

Here are some suggestions for you to start being conscious of your own programming so that you can start with yourself.  And then, as the acceptance and understanding of self is developed, it becomes very easy to start recognizing the patterns in the people we communicate with the most frequently, and you can be conscious of communicating in a fashion that they will receive your message as accurately as possible, and maybe even more importantly, you will receive their message accurately also!

1. Make a list of who you think you are in this world.  IE:  I am tall.  I am blonde.  I am smart.  I am a hard worker.  I am healthy.  I am a good athlete.  I am cranky in the mornings.  I am ..................
2. Now analyze this list to see how much is really in alignment with who you are, rather than what you do.  IE:  Using the statement, "I am a good athlete", I would extrapolate that I have been at times a good athlete, and that I can still fair well at most sports when I try them.  However, when I look even deeper into my soul, I realize that I am able to manifest being a good athlete because all my life I was told how strong I was, capable, coordinated, etc...  This incarnation has created a person who can be a good athlete, but who I truly am has absolutely nothing to do with athletics.  If I never did anything sporty well again in my entire life, I would not cease being me. 
3. So, now that you've extracted the bottom line of who you are in this world, take it a step further. As you analyze your new data, and the beliefs that you've identified with, you may find that it's easier to see the way others' identify with themselves, using yourself as your model.  You can now understand that some parts of your "identity" may not be obvious to others', and therefore others' may have parts that aren't obvious to you.  And, how much of how we identify with ourselves is subconscious and constructed by others' that you have been in contact with in your life.  And, the self-identity that they have, influenced who they decided that you were.  You see this slippery slope, a vicious cycle of being human?  
4. Putting it together into a daily practice is necessary for success.  Not to say that you will always be perfect at this, but just like when you are on a diet you have to remind yourself that you need to drink more water, eat smaller portions, eat more vegies, stay away from chocolate... hehehe... You have to do the same with your mindset.  When you find yourself being reactive, ask yourself, "where is this reaction coming from?  What part am I feeling threatened by?  What is the person really trying to communicate to me?"  Breathe.  Be gentle with yourself.  Allow yourself time to process.  Journal your feelings, or use a little mini recorder to let your thoughts and feelings out.  Open yourself up to healing and love, one thought at a time.
5. It's much easier to be empathetic to your own and others' responses in life when you are able to get in touch with your identity, and the learnings that come from it.  How much easier is it for you to be patient with someone in your conversations when you can understand that they too are taking in all the information you are sending their way and processing it through their filters, which have been constructed subconsciously, often by things outside of their control!  Whew!  Feels so good to let go now, doesn't it?  People are going to hear you the way that they hear you, so the best way to communicate is by listening without letting yourself get triggered by their words, and responding as best you can from a space of love and acceptance.

Don't Should on Yourself

Have you ever wondered about your beliefs?  Where they come from?  Why you choose what you choose?  Act the way you act?  Hate or love the people you hate or love?  How you learned to hate at all...?


Much of this comes from social constructs.  It's a topic that has been coming up a lot in my life lately, and in my clients' lives.  From the time we are born, we are being taught what our society, family, and religious beliefs believe to be right and wrong, good and bad, acceptable and unacceptable.


That could mean that we dislike certain people or races because of the way that they look, even having never met a person of that race.  It could mean that we decide that we are fat and ugly because we don't look like the covergirls on the magazines.  Or, it could mean that we choose to not be in uniquely defined relationships because they aren't the same as everyone else's.


When did we decide that other people's ideas were more valuable than our own?  Why do we as a human race, tend to put people on pedestals, and often take pleasure in seeing them fall off?  We are all perfectly imperfect.  I may have something wonderfully profound to say one moment and something completely ridiculous the next.  Am I insightful or an idiot?  Can I be both?  Can't we all?


So, I thought and I thought on this and I realized that for my truth, I can see that we are all connected and we are all doing our very best, as often as we can, to live in harmony with one another and we need some structure to help that along.  What we don't need, however, is judgments upon one another when we do things that are different.  Sure, lets go ahead and judge a little when someone harms another, or says mean, spiteful things.  But judging who one chooses to love and how they choose to express their love, is pointless and negative.  How we choose to decorate our home, keep stuff, toss stuff, exercise, be lazy, dance in public, or pretend to be a mime--this all should be moot.  A topic for an interesting conversation, and a reflection of ourselves and how we choose to live, perhaps even the "why" around it, but not the negative judgment that is so often made.


Next time you notice thoughts of "should" (should do this, or should've done that), explore where they come from.  Is the "should" really in alignment with YOUR core beliefs and values?  Or is it a social construct that you "should" do only because you've been programmed that if you don't do it that you're doing something wrong or bad?  Who decided that it's wrong or bad?  Check in with your gut.  Is it hurting yourself or others?  If the "should" isn't in alignment with your values and it isn't hurting anyone to not do it, or to do it differently, then perhaps it's time to let go of the "should".  


Someone once told me a long time ago, "Don't should on yourself".  And, I think he was on to something.  If you decide that you should have done the "should", then extrapolate the learning and apply it to your life immediately so you don't repeat the cycle.  And, perhaps apologize to someone too, if applicable.


The bottom line is this, when we check in with ourselves, and we move through life as often as possible from a place of love, the "should's" just disappear.  Explore the possibilities!  


Oh!  I almost forgot!  A wonderful side effect of dumping the social constructs and "should's", is FREEDOM!  And the anxiety melts away like snow in the spring!  Enjoy the peace!

Open Your Eyes and See

I went to Easter service with my aunt and uncle at their local church yesterday. It was a beautiful church, with high beams, copper pipes, comfortable booths. There was a warmth and a friendliness emanating from the people around me. This church was filled with kindhearted people who truly choose to, more often than not, do the right thing, like most of us.

My faith was different than theirs, although not too long ago, it was the same... or at least, similar. It was interesting to see the perspective that this branch of Christianity presented. As it was Easter, the theme was, of course, Christ's resurrection, and Heaven.

The pastor led us through analogies of the suffering that we are to endure here on earth, to prepare us for the grandiosity of Heaven. He explained how we would need to basically cast our ego's aside when we are in Heaven because we will encounter the most heavenly creatures that will blow our minds! How we will marvel at their beauty and gifts, and how we will essentially feel inadequate in comparison.

And it made me wonder... Have these people not seen the miracles and the beauty that is all around them? Are they so looking upward that they have forgotten to look inward and at the abundance of creation all around them? We live in a place of MIRACLES, with unfathomable beauty all around us! Every ant, dolphin, puffy fish, giraffe, even my least favorite, the mosquito, is an exquisite gift of the Divine! And most of all, each other. We are miracles too!!!

We need to open our eyes and SEE and be GRATEFUL and CURIOUS and HUMBLED here on earth because we are all one with this magnificent creation all around us NOW, THEN, and FOREVER! We live in ecstasy, if we choose to be open to it.

This Easter, I choose to receive the gifts of the Divine that are all around me. You. My pets. The plants. The sea. The many cultures. Art. Comedy. The quiet. The noise. Jesus, one of the great masters, said that if only we had faith of that of a mustard seed, we could move mountains. He didn't say that we could move mountains once we got to Heaven. We can move mountains here and now. It starts with opening our eyes to see, love and appreciate all that is around us. And, having faith that we can create whatever our hearts desire with that of the faith of a mustard seed.

Let Your Love Light Shine!

Love is very powerful.

Recently, I had an experience that really helped me gain perspective as to how incredibly lucky I am to have so many different forms of love available to me throughout my life. I have the joy of forming deeply connected bonds with my clients and others that have come into my life. And so, I've learned the many flavors of love and have a deep appreciation for the variety.

Many people only have had romantic love and familial love modeled for them. Spiritual, emotional, and friendship love are foreign concepts that they cannot relate with. In fact, for some people, the idea that love exists in these forms is like believing that the world is flat and having someone tell you that it is in fact, round. Back in the old days, it was unbelievable information, and it took a lot of time, science and enough leaders accepting it as truth for the rest of the people to finally accept it. The same is true for these flavors of love. And, it breaks my heart. That is why I feel it necessary to write about it here.

When people grow up with an absence of multi-flavored love concoctions, it can sometimes be difficult to share your innocent love with them. Many people only know love in a romantic/sexual way or in an immediate family way. When you show them love in a spiritual and humanitarian way, it can be misconstrued, particularly when you are relating with the opposite sex. And, that unfortunately, can lead to heartbreak and emotional distress. For the both of you. Trust me, I just went through this and it is agonizing. I truly considered just turning off, or at least using the dimmer switch to control the amount of love flow that I was projecting. I didn't want to have to deal with another misinterpretation of my affections... and then, I realized that not only would I be restricting my authentic self, but I would also be taking a gift away from the world.

As arrogant as that may have sounded, I firmly believe that each of us are gifted with LOVE and to show it and exult it is the highest form of gratitude to the Universe, aka God. We all, not just me, have an obligation to love fully and freely, and of course, respectfully. We need to let our love light shine full powered! We would be doing a disservice to ourselves and our world if we suppress it. Especially to those who aren't familiar with it and take it wrong... Because, the more they witness this kind of love firsthand, the more familiar it will become and the less likely they are to misunderstand again. And, the more likely they are to start sharing this kind of love as well! See, like a circle of love!

With this love does come responsibility, not only to the recipient, but also to ourselves. We need to listen to our intuition. Choose our loving words carefully and our physical expressions, like hugs, thoughtful and intentional. Explore your personal boundaries and then keep to them, firmly and kindly.

I'm here to encourage you all to open yourselves up to LOVE, in all of it's glorious forms! Share information, hugs, a smile, praise... and do it with loving intention. Let the love inside of you radiate out, and let the love of others filter in! The only way to increase love in the world, is to increase love within ourselves and through our outward expression.

The Abundance Experiment, BOINK!

Well folks, I missed a few days... I did think about the messages, but I didn't end up having the time to blog about what came up for me around them. And, this is feeling like something that I really wish I would have done privately. I've been very transparent, and... I think I'd like to start over, as he insists when you miss a day or two, and complete the project privately. Thank you for your interest and checking in.

I will be continuing to blog about other topics as they come up, so please stay tuned!

The Abundance Experiment, Day 15

Money is not my supply. No person, place or condition is my supply. My awareness, understanding and knowledge of the all-providing activity of the Divine Mind within me is my supply. My consciousness of the Truth is unlimited, therefore, my supply is unlimited." ~exert from John Randolph Price, The Abundance Book

I feel tapped in. Seriously, everything is flowing in a beautiful profound way. I'm not necessarily seeing financial abundance, or really romantic abundance yet, but my relationships are deepening and new people, with amazing awareness, are coming into my existence. I live in gratitude, my metaphorical cup hath runneth over. Namaste.

The Abundance Experiment, Day 14

Through my consciousness of my God-Self, the Christ within, as my source, I draw into my mind and feeling nature the very substance of Spirit. This substance is my supply, thus my consciousness of the Presence of God within me is my supply. ~ expert from The Abundance Book by John Randolph Price

It's very interesting when I ponder this statement. At first, nothing much was coming up outside of the blah, blah, blah in my head. And then, as I continued to sit with it, two ideas emerged and merged. The first is that we as humans have constructed the word and definition of "enough". Our sentiment, "My cup hath runneth over", is again a representation of our limitations on what is enough. The Universe holds no measuring device for "enough" or "not enough". When I allow myself to sit with this curiosity inside of me, all of my problems and fears seem very, very small. I'm surmising that the secret is to tap into the infinite supply that is within without suppression, without judging what is "enough" or "not enough". When I am able to do that, when WE are able to do that, the possibilities will truly be endless.

The Abundance Experiment, Day 13

"I'm conscious of the Inner Presence as my lavish Abundance. I am conscious of the constant activity of this Mind of infinite Prosperity. Therefore, my consciousness is filled with the Light of Truth." exert taken from The Abundance Book by John Randolph Price.

I'm rolling with the punches, as they say. Who "they" are eludes me, but nonetheless, they do say it!

My new tenant decided not to take my house. In 24 hours I went from elated to fearful to grateful, just like that. I was so happy that I had someone who checked out well want to take the house. Then, I was uncomfortable/fearful for a short time when I found out he'd changed his mind. Afraid of all the "what if's" that could be. Then, as I pondered the way the fear felt in the pit of my stomach, I recognized with gratitude that God likely just helped me to dodge a bullet. It's expensive and frustrating to have rapid turnover in a rental house when you can't manage it yourself. Likely, he wasn't as good of a fit as he appeared, and by him leaving before coming, it saved me from having him decide a month or two down the road that it wasn't a good house for his needs. Whew!

I've been noticing how cool that phenomenon can be. I used the example with a client recently, when she was expressing concern over the dating experience and how hurtful it was to get blown off by men at different times. I told her to envision a large funnel. At the top of the funnel it is very, very wide and open to men of all kinds coming into her awareness. Little by little, they get squeezed out as they come down into the narrow part. At the bottom is a filter and that filter catches all the men who aren't good fits for her. Sometimes it happens by them blowing her off for a planned date, other times it's seeing how they treat a waitress in a restaurant. The filter helps to keep us from continuing to date the "wrong" men. God letting us off the hook before we get too many feelings invested. If we pay attention to the filters, we save ourselves a lot of grief. Now, that isn't to say that a man has to be perfect to make it all the way to you. No. The man certainly doesn't have to be perfect. It's just that his issues and quirks, and your issues and quirks, have to get along. You figure this out by all the subtle nuances of dating.

Now, that may seem like a huge digression, but indulge me for just another moment...

The Universe does that for everything in our lives. We just have to pay attention and not invest too much energy in the outcome. The Universe ALWAYS has our best interests at heart. Even if it appears that that isn't the case. If you can look at a scenario with detached awareness, you will always, eventually, find an understanding about why this or that happened. It may still have been a painful experience, and yet the learnings are paramount.

Apparently, someone even better and more suited is going to rent my house. Soon!

The Abundance Experiment, Day 12

" I lift up my mind and heart to be aware, to understand, and to know that the Divine Presence I AM is the Source and Substance of all my good." -John Randolph Price, exert from The Abundance Book.

I've been a little stressed out lately, but really actively trying to let go of the stress and lock in on TRUST. You see, I have a couple of houses that I rent out in Washington state. The tenants of each houses gave notice one month apart that they were leaving. To pay the mortgages without the tenants help was very, very intimidating to me.

This is the current situation: The tenant in the first house paid through this month as her last months rent, but vacated a couple of days ago. She left her personal washer and dryer behind because she couldn't use them anymore. A couple of years ago, I had my washer and dryer stolen out of the house by some tenants when they moved out. So, wow, a new set to replace what was taken before? Lovely. :)

Then, she showed the house yesterday to a young gentleman who loved the house and wants to move in immediately. So, the rental of the first house went like clockwork.

I couldn't have asked for a better flow. I am extremely grateful to the Universe for taking such good care of me. I am grateful to myself that I didn't let myself get overwhelmed with fear and trusted that I would be taken care of! I just know that the other house is going to flow easily and effortlessly also!

I live in an Abundant world. I am Abundant. I am love. You are love. Tap into this frequency of Abundance with me. You will love every second of it!

The Abundance Experiment, Day 11

"God is lavish, unfailing Abundance, the rich omnipresent substance of the Universe. This all-providing Source of infinite prosperity is individualized as me—the Reality of me."

This experiment has been really interesting in some ways to me. First off, I've realized that looking into it, meditating upon God and abundance is triggering something inside of me that is uncomfortable. The name God is all-encompassing to me. It is my favorite word for the Divine. And yet, it triggers my Christian roots and brings up the parts that I didn't like. For example, the parts that boxed God into little segments based on our human experiences and judgments. The parts that cast rich people as evil and greedy. The parts that cast the poor as being more spiritual...

As I explore these different feelings that are coming up, it occurs to me that I still have blocks... or else I wouldn't be having these negative emotions come up. So, my job today is explore my inner-most feelings on religion, God, mythology and especially money. Tomorrow I will post on what comes up for me. For today, I shall ponder....

The Abundance Experiment, Day 10

1. I keep my mind and thoughts off “this world” and I place my entire focus on God within as the only Cause of my prosperity. I acknowledge the Inner Presence as the only activity in my financial affairs, as the substance of all things visible. I place my faith in the Principle of Abundance in action within me. ~Exert from The Abundance Book by John Randolph Price

I feel pretty clear right now. There are a few places within me that I sense are not in alignment with this as a complete belief. I trust that I am taken care of, but I'm still feeling like I need to do my part, and that is the "action" component.

Yesterday I finished my part finally of a long, laborious task; working towards amending a frustrating hospital bill. This has been quite daunting to me, stressing both my body and soul. Now that the required paperwork is done and in their hands, I can let it go... let the Universe take care of the bill and I don't have to worry about it anymore.

F For some reason, I have felt like part of this process of owning my eternal rights to Abundance, comes with freeing all the binds that material bills, taxes, and incidentals have on me. Specifically, anything that resembles "stuck" energy. This aspect of Abundance feels clear now and I can just let go of any expectation or anxiety and let the energy of money flow.

All the other aspects of Abundance is feeling really, really good right now. My relationship with my teenage son is really healthy and happy. My relationships in general have been good. I feel motivated and enjoying my work. And, I may be even creating a new romantic relationship....

The Abundance Experiment, Day 9

When I am aware of the God-Self within me as my total fulfillment, I am totally fulfilled. I am now aware of this Truth. I have found the secret of life, and I relax in the knowledge that the Activity of Divine Abundance is eternally operating in my life. I simply have to be aware of the flow, the radiation, of that Creative Energy, which is continuously, easily and effortlessly pouring forth from my Divine Consciousness. I am now aware. I am now in the flow. ~The Abundance Book by John Randolph Price

I feel the flow radiating through me. It's been a constant theme with my clients lately, them resetting their frequencies to match that of Divine Abundance. I've been feeling my vibration shifting and aligning itself to the Universe's as well.

Now, for the visioning. I'm still struggling with seeing my life as I desire it to be, in the present tense. I still catch myself thinking and expressing audibly as well, that I can't afford this or that, instead of being so sure of my abundance as my exact reality.

So, visioning is where I am focusing right now..... wish me luck!

The Abundance Experiment, Day 8

My consciousness of the Spirit within me as my unlimited Source is the Divine Power to restore the years the locusts have eaten, to make all things new, to lift me up to the High Road of abundant prosperity. This awareness, understanding and knowledge of Spirit appears as every visible form and experience that I could possibly desire. ~exert from The Abundance Book by John Randolph Price

I think about how today I was going through all my old writings and poems. Thinking about all that I learned from my failed relationships. How my perspective and awareness is so different now... I remember in my 20's reading things from my teens and marveling at the simplicity of my feelings. Now I am basically doing the same thing. I comment about this because I think of how Abundance isn't just money and material goods. It's love. It's friendship. It's music, and nature, and everything that you could hope and dream for.

I dream of romantic abundance. I have yearned to find my partner. I have yearned for this, and yet felt very, very content in my life without. I have enjoyed meeting different men and having wonderful interactions, and as of yet, I have not met the one that I choose to take the rest of the journey with.

As this awareness flows through me, patience and tolerance for MYSELF radiates like never before. I recognize that I am not perfect still, as I always have, and yet I am not fixating on perfection in myself or in my partner. The more that I cut myself some slack for being a mere human doing my best to connect and live with Spirit, the more I cut the same slack for everyone else. We are all just doing the best we can, with the tools we've got. I've often been good at allowing that in others, but rarely within myself.

I think that as I ponder this abundance that is gathering within me and through me, it is restoring the parts of me that the locusts have destroyed, creating me anew, and finally ready, to meet my love.

The Abundance Experiment, Day 7

The Divine Consciousness that I am is forever expressing its true nature of Abundance. This is its responsibility, not mine. My only responsibility is to be aware of this Truth. Therefore, I am totally confident in letting go and letting God appear as the abundant all-sufficiency in my life and affairs.~exert from The Abundance Book by John Randolph Price

I'm not perfect and I'm having imperfect thoughts.... Today, I found myself thinking about how I need to see a couple of different natural doctors for some therapy, but I am not wanting to go (despite how I need their help) because I don't want to spend the money. Apparently, I am still not quite embracing this whole abundance concept.

Maybe that's why he has it set as a 40 day plan, not a 7 day???

I'm calling tomorrow to make my appointments.

A sidebar to abundance may be compassion. I had an interesting dialog with an acquaintance of mine over Facebook today going back and forth about Whitney Houston's passing. ALL I feel is deep, profound compassion for her daughter, other family members, and friends... and her. It's painful to watch someone so extraordinarily talented piss away their talent and their life.

I went through this with a singer/songwriter/composer friend of mine that passed away several Thanksgivings ago. He had an ongoing passionate love/hate affair with both himself and drugs. It manifested in the most horrific and painfully beautiful ways. When he overdosed and left us, he left a hole the size of Texas in the hearts of his family members. He hurt them repeatedly while he was alive. But, every single one of them would rather have him alive and repeating his behavior, then gone forever.

I think the same is true for Whitney. She was troubled and addicted. Was she a bad person? Even if she did some bad things? Nah... she was a human being, doing the best she could. If she had the capacity to do better, she would have. She didn't though, and we need to forgive her for that and be grateful for all the good that she did bring to us. It may be helpful to remember the different ways that we individually aren't always perfect. Life is way too short to be a hater. Let it go, have some compassion for others. And, then get REAL and have some compassion for yourself. You deserve it.

The Abundance Experiment, Day 6

1. My inner supply instantly and constantly takes on form and experience according to my needs and desires, and as the Principle of Supply in action, it is impossible for me to have any needs or unfulfilled desires. ~ exert from The Abundance Book by John Randolph Price

I I went shopping today, not for anything specific, but mostly just to move the energy around.... I'm giggling a little right now because I think that's the first time I've ever used that excuse before to go shopping! I bought a few little things here and there, and each time I made it to the register, the prices were discounted even more! It was a fun experiment of shopping and supply in action!

I'm finding that I'm not processing these last few statements as verbally as the first couple. I guess I feel somewhat like I would be redundant, as I'm actively trying to live with these principles deep within me, flowing out of me. The laws of cause and effect are naturally occurring internally and externally.

The Abundance Experiment, Day 5

Money is not my supply. No person, place or condition is my supply. My awareness, understanding and knowledge of the all-providing activity of the Divine Mind within me is my supply. My consciousness of the Truth is unlimited, therefore, my supply is unlimited." ~exert from John Randolph Price, The Abundance Book

I had two charities call me today asking for help. I passed several homeless people on the streets holding signs that read, "Anything helps". I received several solicitations from research facilities, asking for donations.

Giving has always come easily to me, as long as I've had the opportunity to dictate the usage of the funds. I've been very judgmental about how people choose to use their money, and about how money is used when I give it. It makes me stingy often. I don't want to contribute to someones drug habit, so I won't give to him. She's obviously an alcoholic, so I won't give to her. This company pays its CEO way too well, so I won't give to them.

Money is energy and necessary to live life as we individually choose. I don't think I need to worry or judge how a person or charity uses the money anymore. If I feel a "YES" to give, then the giving is done and the gift doesn't need to come with any guarantees or attachments. Actually, I've felt that way for a long time about physical gifts... wonder why it took me so long to come to terms with this for money? It's the same thing, for goodness sake!

The Abundance Experiment, Day 4

Through my consciousness of my God-Self, the Christ within, as my source, I draw into my mind and feeling nature the very substance of Spirit. This substance is my supply, thus my consciousness of the Presence of God within me is my supply. ~ expert from The Abundance Book by John Randolph Price

I was thinking about earlier about how interconnected everything is. An example I sometimes use with my clients is this, we breathe oxygen that the plants and trees provide for us by their exhalation, our exhalation of carbon dioxide provides the gas that they breathe. We are dependent upon each other in a reciprocal way. We live in a reciprocal universe.

Everything comes from God and is God and that includes me. When I forget that that current of energy runs through me and is me, when I ignore that I am tapped into "the" conductor of the Universe, I miss out on the fireworks. I'm curious... if it is that simple, why do most of us "forget" so often who we really are and what we are connected to?

The Abundance Experiment, Day 3

"I'm conscious of the Inner Presence as my lavish Abundance. I am conscious of the constant activity of this Mind of infinite Prosperity. Therefore, my consciousness is filled with the Light of Truth." exert taken from The Abundance Book by John Randolph Price.

Today was an interesting day, filled with lots of introspection and poignant conversation with a dear friend. I feel as if I am hyper-analyzing my thoughts, feelings, and reactions of the reality I am creating. Catching myself when I'm not remembering who I truly am, and calling myself out on it. And then, teaching myself to let it go. To not hold too tightly to what I think I may be doing "wrong", but rather acknowledging how I can have a better experience by making a different choice next time, and then being done with it. It feels very freeing. I'm beginning to understand on a deeper level that Prosperity and Abundance have everything to do with my inner representation. In fact, that may be the only factor that ultimately matters. The "Inner" therefore, creates the "Outer". This is my beacon. My Light of Truth that I must follow as I create my reality, as I create my "Lavish Abundance".

The Abundance Experiment, Day 2

"" I lift up my mind and heart to be aware, to understand, and to know that the Divine Presence I AM is the Source and Substance of all my good." -John Randolph Price, exert from The Abundance Book.

The Divine Presence I AM... I think that that is the Source and Substance of ALL. Good and Bad, those judgments that I put on circumstances within my perspective. Everything the Universe puts in my path is for my very best. Some things may be interpreted as "bad" by me, and others as "good", but ultimately all for my BEST.

I say this with a bit of a smirk, I must confess. Today was a very good day by my personal standards, and yet I had something happen that could have absolutely taken my vantage point to a disturbing low. I somehow missed a stop sign on my way to dinner, leaving a long day at work. And, I wasn't alone as I missed my stop. Conveniently, there was a police officer to witness my infraction and he very kindly, but firmly, pulled me over and presented me with a ticket! At first I was so confused... I've driven this route a hundred times and have always stopped. Somehow tonight my mind was on something else, likely food, and I just didn't stop--had zero recollection that there even existed a stop sign there. It was all so very bizarre.

My immediate reaction was that of scoffing disbelief that just on day 2 alone of my prosperity plan I would LOSE at least a few hundred dollars, that I don't believe (didn't believe) I can bear to lose, by a simple oversight. And, I sat in my truck for a few moments collecting myself and reflecting on the irony. Some may say that Murphy's Law was out to get me. I actually used to truly believe that I would jinx myself from anything that I wanted if I thought of it too much or showed too much joyous emotion. Thankfully, I learned a while ago that that kind of thinking was crap. Negative. And, counter productive. However, it's obvious to me that some strands of that former consciousness still harbor within me, or I would have right away noticed the gift of my ticket...

This is my gift from tonight's experience: The Universe was playfully testing me. Before it starts allowing the energetic flow of money and abundance my way, it needs to know that I can release all attachments to what that will look like. I need to let go of the feelings of "Lack" and fully, deeply... penetratingly deeply, OWN the beliefs that money is a revolving door of energy.

Although the ticket certainly didn't feel "good" in the human kind of way, I recognize on a deeper and WAY more trustworthy level, that it was for MY GOOD in the highest sense of the meaning. And so, we close on Day 2 with a little drama, a hint of an antagonist character, always a plus for any story worth reading, don't you think?

The Abundance Experiment, Day 1

Forward

Today I start a journey of self-discovery and increased awareness. I have read the book, The Abundance Book by John Randolph Price, and am applying the principles and instructions for allowing the full spectrum of Abundance to not only come into my life, but to overwhelm me so that the Abundance also flows out of me and into others', as it is intended. This is a process of dedication and serious belief change.

I have decided to do Mr. Price's 40 Day Prosperity Plan publicly. Journaling my innermost thoughts and beliefs, allowing myself to be completely transparent and vulnerable to whatever audience chooses to follow this journey with me. This plan ascends as such, one time per day I will write out, in order, one of the ten statements from the book. I will meditate upon the words for several minutes, and then journal my thoughts, feelings, and feedback as to what I see happening in my world, which may or may not be effected by this Prosperity Plan. I will use some critical judgment, as well as, intuition and spiritual insights. Bear with me, as I could get mushy from time to time doing this experiment!

I will appreciate your feedback, even if you think I won't like what you have to say, because this, like any good experiment, will only become richer with input from a variety of opinions.

My hypothesis is that money will flow freely to and from me, building momentum and solidarity, as the God-given energetic tool that it is. I also believe that I will see abundance in other areas where it "feels" like it's been lacking, namely, in the romance department! I'm open to abundance how ever it shows itself to me, and I will share candidly with you. If you choose to take on this Prosperity Plan, I strongly urge you to purchase the book, read it, and then begins when you can fully commit to 40 continual days.

From the book, as instructed:

This day, February 6, 2012, I cease believing in visible money as my supply and my support and I view the world of effect as it truly is... simply an outpicturing of my former beliefs. I believed in the power of money, therefore I surrendered my God-given power and authority to an objectified belief. I believed in the possibility of lack, thus causing a separation in consciousness from the Source of my supply. I believed in mortal man and carnal conditions, and through this faith gave man and conditions power over me. I believed in the mortal illusion created by the collective consciousness of error thoughts, and in doing so, I have limited the Unlimited. No more! This day, I renounce my so-called humanhood and claim my divine inheritance as a Be-ing of God. This day I acknowledge God and only God as my substance, my supply and my support.

Day 1

"God is lavish, unfailing Abundance, the rich omnipresent substance of the Universe. This all-providing Source of infinite prosperity is individualized as me—the Reality of me."

Thoughts:

At first glance, I think to myself, "Oh, heck yeah!" Years before The Secret became such a phenomenon I had learned about beliefs and the structures that support them. I had come to realize that just as a single grain of sand is still, nonetheless, sand... I am also fully God, as we all are. So, this type of thinking on the surface, isn't new. It is the core basis of my beliefs.

And then, the thought occurred to me... "if you truly believed this to be true, then you wouldn't have to do this Prosperity Plan experiment. You would already be living in Abundance." So, apparently I have some serious, deep rooted beliefs systems, likely that I was taught by my parents and grandparents, that I still believe to be true. They have always feared lack, and I need to own that I do also, so I can release it and stop making it true.

The next thought that I process is this, "Infinite prosperity??? What is that? What would it look like? Will I be able to handle it if it really comes to fruition?"

Ah-ha... now I understand why this requires 40 straight days to reprogram this multi-layered belief matrix.